To be somebody is to stand on your own feet,
Choosing your own way,
Breaking new ground,
As you keep to the straight and narrow path.
When you are standing upright
With your head lifted high,
While you receive scorn and mockery,
As token of distinction,
And marks of honour,
Then you are showing the inner strength
That makes you a real somebody!
-credits to da poem owner-
I realized dat using da word "we" last time wuz a terrible mistake..(kesian Kurik, kecik hati dia)..so tis actually for those living in denial (or those who juz keeps turning off da snooze)..
1) When a perosn says "It’s Ok"..does he/she rili mean it? or he/she is juz afraid of
standing up for his/hers rights..
2) When a person smile to another person..does he/she smiles with his/her heart or
he/she is juz faking it..
3) When a person says “Hi” to another person..does he/she rili mean it..or he/she juz
wanna look nice saying it..
4) When a person talks about how much he/she adore their partners
(bf’s/gf’s/husbands/wife)..does he/she rili feel it or he/she is juz being plain
hypocritic about it?
5) When a person shops like Lil’ Mr/Lil’ Miss "Clueless"..does he/she rili need those
things..or it’s totally about "I’m a spoilt bratz-waddehel!!"..
6) When a person says he/she is only "teman tapi mesra" wit da other guy in his/her
life..izit rili so?..or he/she is juz covering up his/hers infidelity?
7) When a person tells his/her parents back home dat he/she has been studying da
whole nite..but actually God knows wat he/she has been doing..
When a person tells himself/herself..dat he/she is so over it (plz do expand da
definition of “OVER IT” here)..izit rili so or he/she juz wanna be seen strong
facing it??
9) When a person prays 5 times a day n do all da things required by da religion..is
he/she rili being a good muslim or he/she is juz doing it so dat it shuts other
people’s mouth.
10) When a person brags about his/hers so called achievements..izit rili dat glorious
or he/she is juz trying to boost up his/hers low self esteem/inferiority.
p/s:I drink chammomile tea bcoz real tea irritates my liver (so even if it’s a high-tea, I’d still pass)
Alhamdulillah-I managed to settle all da colloqs in 3 days..not very pleased with some of da “expected marks” though but maybe dats juz me..I dun like to postphone everything to da last minute n go hair-wire when everythings piled up..n No-I never purposely flunk my test..(juz not me!!) If I fail..I admit dat I didnt prepare enuff..Got big-fully sponsored-plans for the winter break (sowi ek Mulberry-I’m still broke)..so wanna make sure nothing gets in da way for me to leave Moscow A.S.A.P.
Yeay, I’m so dem free tis wiken but then again Kurik will be having a sleep-over at his friends in
Karlsruhe ..well dats juz him..if not he’ll be bz wit futbol..so would juz have to settle wit calling2 only.
“Every long lost dream lead me to where you are..those who broke my heart..they were like northern star..pointing me on my way..into your loving arms..tis much I know it’s true..that God blessed da broken road da lead me to you..”..sweet? especially when
ur ex bf forwarded it to u and knowing dat u’ve been refered to as da road..haha!! mangkuk betol!!..but seriouslaa..all da break ups and experiences dat we had before with our previous partners prepares us to be better person in da next relationship..Yerp, we felt da pain and we cried da shit over it..but then we juz have to let it go n move on…Da worst break up dat I had wuz da one who costed me 2 guys-a rili meaningful person to me n a rili good friend..sedeyh? still sedeyh (but sket jer laa kot)..especially when bumping into them once in a while..but Dowa alwiz reminds me dat I’ve got Kurik now..which is so much better outside and inside, matured and understands my condition well..da one who I can rili see a future to be with..AMIN!! so dat song sayang..I dedicate to u..
Mangkuk once told me dat I’m a spoilt brat..alwiz wanting things dat I couldn’t have..for m, dat’s juz being ambitious..wats so wrong wit dat? Tuhan pun kata..dier takkan ubah nasib seseorg selagi dier x berusaha utk ubah nyer sendiri rite? And I alwiz go for a better choice..(I think?!)..like, y should we buy a 50cents ice cream from da ice cream man at TTWangsa when we can get a Mc Donalds cone wit da same price? promotion maa..
Ala. .jalan sket jer kot..(Mc Donalds jalan Pahang in memories..huhu balik dr LP concert pun lepak situ gak..)
Oh, a lil bit bout da Gelombang Kuning,..It;s for A Clean Election-OK my bad!!..wat ever matters they try to bring up is juz a cover up to get Anwar back in his position..which da chances is a million to one-DREAM ON UNCLE!! In his speeches..still going on underrating his own race in front of others..-MELAYU X SEDAR DIRI!! Oh n plz stop disgracing da yellow color. One thing to bear in mind when choosing a color is knowing da background..if it’s white-it’s goes with practically anycolors..but if it’s black-u’ll juz have to settle wit few ugly ones..(yerp dats my own original metafore!)
p/s: God bless Mangkuk, Twin, Sudu, Dak Jepun, and Mulberry *wink*wink*
Mind da language.tenses n da spelling..it’s almost
5am but I couldn’t resist posting tis entry..
Hmm..early tis week..forwarded msgs from YM..an urge for us here to wear yellow to support da 10K rakyat meeting da Agong..I wuz like-ok..hmm gud la da Agong wants to meet da rakyat..but then today (Saturday)in da afternoon..sumbody forwarded me a clip from da CNN news saying dat da Gelombang Kuning turned out to be chaotic..da white reporter even joined da group as if he wuz “wit” them sharing all da spirit n faking a run as if being run after by da FRU..hmm, my first impression..”Pure exaggeration!!”.
But in da evening..more n more forewarded video..which rili make me feel sad. Not juz sad of wats happening in our country..but also sad dat these peeps here seems to enjoy letting da whole world to know about da chaos..which wuz actually xde bende kot?!
Ok..I might not be da right person to talk bout it..dun rili fancy politics but..da highlight of Anwar’s case wuz in 1998..when I wuz a bout to take my SPM..when I wuz bz going in n out of KL for tuitions.-Nope!! I wasn’t among those peeps kicking da TV3 vehicle, getting battons beating from da police-wasnt me. I remember dat afternoon..when I stopped over at Sogo first..to get Sarah’s bday present before going to Ming’s..Anwars trials wuz a hit dat time n evry evening..da TAR road will be jammed packed coz Azizah willl surely take dat road to meet all da supporters..
Well being 17 n so naïve at dat time..when I finished shopping, I went out tru da main door heading to Ming’s..noticed dat SOGO was abit “too” bz dat afternoon n dat da streets was amazingly clear of cars n human..even when dat day was a Friday afternoon..I went jumping around on da street coz in my mind..I’m going straight to Sarah’s place for da bday party..after about 10mins of walk..still not realizing wat wuz happening..I saw the big red trucks (not fire engines OK?)..slowly filling da streets..On my mind “Mak aih..FRU!!”.nk merdeka day nyer practice ke? Coz other than Merdeka day..u can only see da FRU’s at concerts hehe..then only I realize..dat I wuz da only being on da street at da time..other peeps had already hide themselves in shopping complexes n buildings..BARU TERASA CUAK..NAIK BULU ROMA!! n when da trucks passed me..(or maybe I passed da trucks) I can see their worried faces..(then I teringat my mum’s story when she wuz trapped in KL during 16th May)..rupanyer it wuz da first verdict day n Anwar’s supporters nak berarak dat evening.. something horrific wuz expected..my instinct told me to keep walking n get out of KL..A.S.A.P!!
I dun fancy or even hate da FRUs n police, coz to me they are juz doing their job..I hate da peeps who like to cause chaos…like today..Anwars peeps provoked them..then only the retaliate..n plz laa..stop exaggerating-it’s not chemical gas..It’s juz water..oh, n If u feel a bit of sensation in da eye N skin..it’s juz soap water..stop being so paranoid of the things dat u
ur self caused to happen..
Yes maybe at first da cityhall gave them da permit to “Berhimpun Secara Aman”..but those peeps didn’t behave themselves..dats y some action had to be taken..n I juz so hate da way da CNN reporter reported da news..”these peeps are juz asking for a true democracy” or sumthing like dat..hey bro-get a mirror..like seriously..
Then I got tis video about tis forum-organized by the “Barisan Alternatif”.inviting all da speakers like Amin Idris n Hishamuddin Rais..well, I have no prob wit Amin Idris’s speech..he did make some points to be taken into consideration but then Hishamuddin Rais..he should be thankful dat he can still enter
Malaysia after ISA detention n dilucut kenegaraan some yrs ago..to me he’s juz a selfish snob who rejects da Negaraku song (he said it wuz plagiarised from a French song) n he also rejects our national flag..bcoz it has da union jack characteristic etc..He said-Msian had been fooled for 50yrs..(wat? Still cant get over
ur grandfather or maybe
ur father’s lost in da Negaraku / Bedera
Malaysia composition competition izit? It’s been 50yrs uncle..let it go)..
As a conclusion..(of wat I myself amnot sure of) I’m juz so pissed off with the ungrateful Malaysian in
Malaysia now..yerp our country might not be perfect..(does a perfect country even exist?)..but I believe dat there are many other countries worst than us..but their peeps dun go on to da extreme humiliating da country n da leaders..Try walking in my shoes..living as a foreingner in da most shitty place on earth called
Russia . Eventhough da whole world knows da tis is truly da land of all motherfuckers..u’ll never hear da Russian bitching about their own country..they will alwiz say dat they are da best in this n that..(eventhough it is 100% self-proclaimed) wat touches me is dat they could still have strong spirit for a worthless country like tis!! n plz..stop bitching about Dr.Sheikh Muzafar..yerp maybe da project had only 50-50 relevance..but I think da rest of it is just pure jealousy dat he wuz da one who made it da first to be in space instead of you,you n you..(probably me also hehe!!)..da loosers will join da loosers (barisan alternative can cooperate wit each other (eventhough each of them have their own evil agenda) to be a majority n hopefully win in their quest..to me Anwar is not sincere to da nation..n since 1998-he n Azizah have been humiliating da country juz to get him back in position..da Gelombang Kuning was not bout rakyat..but totally about him..about how unfair da judiciary system wuz toward him almost a decade ago..da other 30-40K supporters wuz juz “lalang-erz”..Pnder tis- kalau anwar kena tangkap pun..family dier kaya raya..x effect ape pun..his children will still get enuff of good education n life..but those 30-40k peeps kalau kena tangkap..kompom ke anak bini kt rumah ade bende nk makan..but dat is so typical Malaysian
kan ? Haha..tepuk dada tanye selera..
Relaku menunggumu..seribu thn lama lagi..tp benarkah hidup ku kan selama ini..? Al-Fatihah for Bonds late father-Arwah Encik Anuar..semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.
Arghhh..tension, last nite only, woke up 3 times to vomit..yesterday evening my throat dh start feeling funny.. nat’s cheese cakes, ruby’s laksa and Are’s kek batik all tasted funny (no offence it’s not u guys fault-totally on me) n today-it’s confirmed-fever.. thanx to my dearest rumate for sharing her 2 weeks undone pyrexia in da room and at last I got-dem!! Not sure wether I could make it to AR07 tomolo..
Hmm..been bz wit my colloquium-notice there’s no “s” there coz it’s solely about Path-Anat..alhamdulilah I passed it in da 2nd attempt..after tis have to prepare for Oral la plak..then pharmaco and da cycle will never stops.
The way I’am has been playing in my head for about a week now..I wuz in love wit da song esp da lyrics da moment I first listened to it..juz so innocent..(an I love the way u call me baby-yes baby;p) Hmm Kurik played n sang it to me last nite..dem, he’s juz so good wit da guitar..(believe it or not..I myself now salu pau syai’s guitar) Oh, ikram made his cover version of it for me too-Thanx bro!!
Been browsing and I came across Kurik’s pic in his friends photostream..n guess wat?! all his pics in ACTION!! (during futbol la weyh-wat were u thinking?)..can rili see dat he’s rili into it..n he’s juz so good wit it pun!! so I guess, I should stop being such a baby about tis futbol thing..(I’m sori for wat I did before baby)..My mum ckp-thank god it’s juz futbol n not gals (which is kinda true rite?!)
Kinda missing my catz la..especially Rosie da obese one!! saw tis fat siberian cat at da bus stop on Tuesday..well since it looked so phat..i wuz’nt so sure wether to take it in or not..takut amik org punyer plak..then disccussed wit papa cat ting-15..he agreed for a join custody (haha)..coz nk jaga kucing dlm flat ni rumit sket..silap aribulan dier terjun bunuh diri (waaaa!!-talk bout experience ere) n must do it wit passion n bukan sbb terpaksa (dats y my family could take care of 45 catz last time-no kiddin’)..oh, n i juz pity those who hates catz..(u juz dunno wat u’ve been missing)
p/s: Oh ya..called my mum early tis week..gud news-Alhamdulillah!! after all da anticipation..
