shaz-azla

Alhamdulillah-I managed to settle all da colloqs in 3 days..not very pleased with some of da “expected marks” though but maybe dats juz me..I dun like to postphone everything to da last minute n go hair-wire when everythings piled up..n No-I never purposely flunk my test..(juz not me!!) If I fail..I admit dat I didnt prepare enuff..Got big-fully sponsored-plans for the winter break (sowi ek Mulberry-I’m still broke)..so wanna make sure nothing gets in da way for me to leave Moscow A.S.A.P.

Yeay, I’m so dem free tis wiken but then again Kurik will be having a sleep-over at his friends in

Karlsruhe

..well dats juz him..if not he’ll be bz wit futbol..so would juz have to settle wit calling2 only.

“Every long lost dream lead me to where you are..those who broke my heart..they were like northern star..pointing me on my way..into your loving arms..tis much I know it’s true..that God blessed da broken road da lead me to you..”..sweet? especially when

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ex bf forwarded it to u and knowing dat u’ve been refered to as da road..haha!! mangkuk betol!!..but seriouslaa..all da break ups and experiences dat we had before with our previous partners prepares us to be better person in da next relationship..Yerp, we felt da pain and we cried da shit over it..but then we juz have to let it go n move on…Da worst break up dat I had wuz da one who costed me 2 guys-a rili meaningful person to me n a rili good friend..sedeyh? still sedeyh (but sket jer laa kot)..especially when bumping into them once in a while..but Dowa alwiz reminds me dat I’ve got Kurik now..which is so much better outside and inside, matured and understands my condition well..da one who I can rili see a future to be with..AMIN!! so dat song sayang..I dedicate to u..

Mangkuk once told me dat I’m a spoilt brat..alwiz wanting things dat I couldn’t have..for m, dat’s juz being ambitious..wats so wrong wit dat? Tuhan pun kata..dier takkan ubah nasib seseorg selagi dier x berusaha utk ubah nyer sendiri rite? And I alwiz go for a better choice..(I think?!)..like, y should we buy a 50cents ice cream from da ice cream man at TTWangsa when we can get a Mc Donalds cone wit da same price? promotion maa..

Ala.

.jalan sket jer kot..(Mc Donalds jalan Pahang in memories..huhu balik dr LP concert pun lepak situ gak..)

Oh, a lil bit bout da Gelombang Kuning,..It;s for A Clean Election-OK my bad!!..wat ever matters they try to bring up is juz a cover up to get Anwar back in his position..which da chances is a million to one-DREAM ON UNCLE!! In his speeches..still going on underrating his own race in front of others..-MELAYU X SEDAR DIRI!! Oh n plz stop disgracing da yellow color. One thing to bear in mind when choosing a color is knowing da background..if it’s white-it’s goes with practically anycolors..but if it’s black-u’ll juz have to settle wit few ugly ones..(yerp dats my own original metafore!)

p/s: God bless Mangkuk, Twin, Sudu, Dak Jepun, and Mulberry *wink*wink*

Mind da language.tenses n da spelling..it’s almost

5am

but I couldn’t resist posting tis entry..

Hmm..early tis week..forwarded msgs from YM..an urge for us here to wear yellow to support da 10K rakyat meeting da Agong..I wuz like-ok..hmm gud la da Agong wants to meet da rakyat..but then today (Saturday)in da afternoon..sumbody forwarded me a clip from da CNN news saying dat da Gelombang Kuning turned out to be chaotic..da white reporter even joined da group as if he wuz “wit” them sharing all da spirit n faking a run as if being run after by da FRU..hmm, my first impression..”Pure exaggeration!!”.

But in da evening..more n more forewarded video..which rili make me feel sad. Not juz sad of wats happening in our country..but also sad dat these peeps here seems to enjoy letting da whole world to know about da chaos..which wuz actually xde bende kot?!

Ok..I might not be da right person to talk bout it..dun rili fancy politics but..da highlight of Anwar’s case wuz in 1998..when I wuz a bout to take my SPM..when I wuz bz going in n out of KL for tuitions.-Nope!! I wasn’t among those peeps kicking da TV3 vehicle, getting battons beating from da police-wasnt me. I remember dat afternoon..when I stopped over at Sogo first..to get Sarah’s bday present before going to Ming’s..Anwars trials wuz a hit dat time n evry evening..da TAR road will be jammed packed coz Azizah willl surely take dat road to meet all da supporters..

Well being 17 n so naïve at dat time..when I finished shopping, I went out tru da main door heading to Ming’s..noticed dat SOGO was abit “too” bz dat afternoon n dat da streets was amazingly clear of cars n human..even when dat day was a Friday afternoon..I went jumping around on da street coz in my mind..I’m going straight to Sarah’s place for da bday party..after about 10mins of walk..still not realizing wat wuz happening..I saw the big red trucks (not fire engines OK?)..slowly filling da streets..On my mind “Mak aih..FRU!!”.nk merdeka day nyer practice ke? Coz other than Merdeka day..u can only see da FRU’s at concerts hehe..then only I realize..dat I wuz da only being on da street at da time..other peeps had already hide themselves in shopping complexes n buildings..BARU TERASA CUAK..NAIK BULU ROMA!! n when da trucks passed me..(or maybe I passed da trucks) I can see their  worried faces..(then I teringat my mum’s story when she wuz trapped in KL during 16^th May)..rupanyer it wuz da first verdict day n Anwar’s supporters nak berarak dat evening.. something horrific wuz expected..my instinct told me to keep walking n get out of KL..A.S.A.P!!

I dun fancy or even hate da FRUs n police, coz to me they are juz doing their job..I hate da peeps who like to cause chaos…like today..Anwars peeps provoked them..then only the retaliate..n plz laa..stop exaggerating-it’s not chemical gas..It’s juz water..oh, n If u feel a bit of sensation in da eye N skin..it’s juz soap water..stop being so paranoid of the things dat u

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self caused to happen..

Yes maybe at first da cityhall gave them da permit to “Berhimpun Secara Aman”..but those peeps didn’t behave themselves..dats y some action had to be taken..n I juz so hate da way da CNN reporter reported da news..”these peeps are juz asking for a true democracy” or sumthing like dat..hey bro-get a mirror..like seriously..

Then I got tis video about tis forum-organized by the “Barisan Alternatif”.inviting all da speakers like Amin Idris n Hishamuddin Rais..well, I have no prob wit Amin Idris’s speech..he did make some points to be taken into consideration but then Hishamuddin Rais..he should be thankful dat he can still enter

Malaysia

after ISA detention n dilucut kenegaraan some yrs ago..to me he’s juz a selfish snob who rejects da Negaraku song (he said it wuz plagiarised from a French song) n he also rejects our national flag..bcoz it has da union jack characteristic etc..He said-Msian had been fooled for 50yrs..(wat? Still cant get over

ur

grandfather or maybe

ur

father’s lost in da Negaraku / Bedera

Malaysia

composition competition izit? It’s been 50yrs uncle..let it go)..

As a conclusion..(of wat I myself amnot sure of) I’m juz so pissed off with the ungrateful Malaysian in

Malaysia

now..yerp our country might not be perfect..(does a perfect country even exist?)..but I believe dat there are many other countries worst than us..but their peeps dun go on to da extreme humiliating da country n da leaders..Try walking in my shoes..living as a foreingner in da most shitty place on earth called

Russia

. Eventhough da whole world knows da tis is truly da land of all motherfuckers..u’ll never hear da Russian bitching about their own country..they will alwiz say dat they are da best in this n that..(eventhough it is 100% self-proclaimed) wat touches me is dat they could still have strong spirit for a worthless country like tis!! n plz..stop bitching about Dr.Sheikh Muzafar..yerp maybe da project had only 50-50 relevance..but I think da rest of it is just pure jealousy dat he wuz da one who made it da first to be in space instead of you,you n you..(probably me also hehe!!)..da loosers will join da loosers (barisan alternative can cooperate wit each other (eventhough each of them have their own evil agenda) to be a majority n hopefully win in their quest..to me Anwar is not sincere to da nation..n since 1998-he n Azizah have been humiliating da country juz to get him back in position..da Gelombang Kuning was not bout rakyat..but totally about him..about how unfair da judiciary system wuz toward him almost a decade ago..da other 30-40K supporters wuz juz “lalang-erz”..Pnder tis- kalau anwar kena tangkap pun..family dier kaya raya..x effect ape pun..his children will still get enuff of good education n life..but those 30-40k peeps kalau kena tangkap..kompom ke anak bini kt rumah ade bende nk makan..but dat is so typical Malaysian

kan

? Haha..tepuk dada tanye selera..

Relaku menunggumu..seribu thn lama lagi..tp benarkah hidup ku kan selama ini..? Al-Fatihah for Bonds late father-Arwah Encik Anuar..semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.

Arghhh..tension, last nite only, woke up 3 times to vomit..yesterday evening my throat dh start feeling funny.. nat’s cheese cakes, ruby’s laksa and Are’s kek batik all tasted funny (no offence it’s not u guys fault-totally on me) n today-it’s confirmed-fever.. thanx to my dearest rumate for sharing her 2 weeks undone pyrexia in da room and at last I got-dem!! Not sure wether I could make it to AR07 tomolo..

Hmm..been bz wit my colloquium-notice there’s no “s” there coz it’s solely about Path-Anat..alhamdulilah I passed it in da 2nd attempt..after tis have to prepare for Oral la plak..then pharmaco and da cycle will never stops.

The way I’am has been playing in my head for about a week now..I wuz in love wit da song esp da lyrics da moment I first listened to it..juz so innocent..(an I love the way u call me baby-yes baby;p) Hmm Kurik played n sang it to me last nite..dem, he’s juz so good wit da guitar..(believe it or not..I myself now salu pau syai’s guitar) Oh, ikram made his cover version of it for me too-Thanx bro!!

Been browsing and I came across Kurik’s pic in his friends photostream..n guess wat?! all his pics in ACTION!! (during futbol la weyh-wat were u thinking?)..can rili see dat he’s rili into it..n he’s juz so good wit it pun!! so I guess, I should stop being such a baby about tis futbol thing..(I’m sori for wat I did before baby)..My mum ckp-thank god it’s juz futbol n not gals (which is kinda true rite?!)

Kinda missing my catz la..especially Rosie da obese one!! saw tis fat siberian cat at da bus stop on Tuesday..well since it looked so phat..i wuz’nt so sure wether to take it in or not..takut amik org punyer plak..then disccussed wit papa cat ting-15..he agreed for a join custody (haha)..coz nk jaga kucing dlm flat ni rumit sket..silap aribulan dier terjun bunuh diri (waaaa!!-talk bout experience ere) n must do it wit passion n bukan sbb terpaksa (dats y my family could take care of 45 catz last time-no kiddin’)..oh, n i juz pity those who hates catz..(u juz dunno wat u’ve been missing)

p/s: Oh ya..called my mum early tis week..gud news-Alhamdulillah!! after all da anticipation..

*Mariah Carey n Usher-How much I love u playin..*

Hmm..believe it or not..dah masuk 3 weeks kita raya, time rili flies rite?..sib baik dh abes pose 6..so sudahkah kita habes bermaaf-maafan? Hmm *frowning*..browsed tru my cuz’s profile n saw a rili “nice” shout-out by his fwen “ kepada sesapa yg suka kutuk n carik psl ngn org..then baru nk mntk maaf maser raya leyh gi mampos!!” woooo…

Karma?-hmm tatau la, but da cup league sume dh start balik..so Kurik will be pretty much occupied wit da games..hmm, feel kinda left out la gak coz futbol is like his 1^st gf..neway, x pe la cyg..lets juz hope our babies nnti jd superb futbolerz..

Hmm..yesterday waz colloq day for path-anat..n it wuz a rili beautiful day..Y?.bcoz da whole class failed da writing test..hahahaha!! dunno la..not enuff prep? maybe, but my rumate been studying like hell since Sunday (me? mlm selasa tuh baru nk swallow evrything), xde skema soklan? Pergh bukan naik kaya si fakrul jd tokey xerox skema senior..path-phys coloq syndrome? Huh..so wats da prob? Language kot..No!!-language is da main prob!!

Ok2..so Sheikh safely landed on earth last Saturday..Yeay?! but then when people starts post mortem-ing da whole programme…some points rili worth to ponder gak la like y take da yo-yo for testing again in da space (when it’s been done prev by prev astronouts who went there?) then bout da 10 days-scientific experiments..(which actually takes months n years to get da results)..babe, when I was about to do my M.Sc..one of da reasons I dowan to cont wuz bcoz of da time it takes juz to cultivate da cancer cells..they call it Tissue Culture-I call it Tissue Torture..have to passage (pronounced as “pasaj”) da cell to make sure it grows only in one layer (man dat at least take 2 hours!!) one layer..Exposure to UV rays in da laminar flow..(Caused a hassle in HUSM Emergency Unit bcoz of it) then da possibility of contamination-arghhhh!! Esp when Dr.Karimah masuk lab..waaa…only da peeps in Craniofacial Lab knows it (*wink*wink*..respect la u guys!!)..

Oh ya n y a doc? Mayb bcoz our fwen who said tis is an engineer..but kinda true rite? It’s not like da hunk can build a rocket when he gets back in Mesia..so next, Faez wanna manoever Soyuz?..hmm but balik nnti he’ll still be working wit da dental chair rite? hmm we should rili send engineers la (like my kurik? Hehe)..so dat they can rili materialize wat they learn from da programme n contribute to da country rite?..but then again those other candidates failed da qualification test..only these 2 made it..so how? Bukan salah ibu mengandung..

Been chatting wit instink81, don’t get me wrong..he’s like my big bro..buying a car under the Professional scheme..n dem they get dicounts 50-60K for cars they r buying..(it’s like da gov’s way to lure our profesionals overseas to come back n work in mesia)-see it’s not all bad having to do on-calls during winter n getting paid in 6x in ₤ (bro, u kiddin’me?)..so Russian graduates? Wanna work overseas? HAHA!!

Oh, tonite wuz 7-14’s night out..been a long time coz eventhough share da same toilet ..(cant rili use da “ duduk sebumbung” thing ere rite?)..went no other than Simbad (well dats da nearest we could think of going out in da middle of da week)..kinda miss syaurma laa since Karina banckrupt (I alwiz mixed up syaurma n masyrut now..nape ntah)..hmm biler pegi Simbad ni..one big problemo..(shaz, wat were u thinking?)

“Goodbye my almost lover,
Goodbye my hopeless dream,
I’m trying not to think about you,
Cant u juz let me be?”

Sowi, but I love my baby..

Hmm..my baby gave me tis song from Once movie he watched during his flight back to Frankfurt..he said the movie wuz so so jer but the songs were marv!!..I read reviews about da movie-A small movie wit a big heart they say etc..so Falling Slowly is a reply from him to my prev entry..(bcoz Kurik tak main laa friendster n bende2 yg sewaktu dgnnye..typical ol-skool as wat Dora would have said)

Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly Lyrics

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You’ve made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I’ll sing along

Thanx again sayang..

Hmm..wuz re-organizing my ever messy drawer..getting rid of da old cd’s I cant even remember where I got it from..then I found tis old cd..auncle aki gave me-pics mase bday sarah..pics mase da last raya before I came here..hmm then some songs from ain laa..1 track rili caught my attention. Searched da net for da lyrics by B’yu..but could’nt find da complete one..so these are da words that I could decifer (haha) from what I hear..got all mellow listening to it..I dedicate it to my sayang..KURIK!! (aint gonna disclose his real name here for unnecessary attention..)

B’yu-Kaulah Segalanya

Kau merubah segala..cinta yg ku damba..

Kehadiran dirimu..menyinari mekar semula hatiku,

Kaulah segalanya..yang menyinar hidup ku kasih,

Hanya satunya..yang kucintai..

Hulur tangan mu kasih..sambut cintaku,

Jangan tinggalkan daku sorg diri..tak sanggup lagi dilukai,

Maaf kan daku..jika kau tahu,

Peristiwa yg pernah ku alami dulu..

Aku tahu betapa pahit mu..menerima sejarah hidupku.

Kaulah segalanya..yang menyinar hidupku kasih,

Hanya satunya…yg kucintai,

Sambutlah cintaku..jangan kau pergi dari sisiku,

Cintaku padamu..Ikhlas sejati.                                                             

Thank you sayang..

Hmm..anticholinergic drugs + cholinergic antagonist..classification blah3x..(fingers dancing smoothly on da keybored..when suddenly)..OMG da four docs are walking down da hall way again..and da music automatically diverted my focus from da book to da screen n then..stucked on to it..who could resist (well at least I know-I CANT!!)-House M.D..(shaz, u sajer carik nahas)..da song n da strut by da four docs alwiz makes me feel as if I’m being paged in..24hrs on call..haha(perasan!!)…but still Pharmaco td-with no mistakes hehe!!

Oh, Patphys colloq tomolo!! so path-anat lect n ruski? to go or not to go? Last week kantoi ngn Shemmy..dunno wats gotten into him n his gang..buat Ops terjah room to room.."I think u sleep" haha wat a command of English for a Vice Dean..(Well peeps tis is indeed-Russia).

Yeay..today Kurik smpi

Frankfurt

..terus gi class ek cyg? So sorry tak sempat wish good bye n safe journey bcoz..(I woke up late cyg-soooowi!!) called his house, sis ckp dh gerak to airport..sob sob (kata nk gerak peh maghrib?!-apela..) Balik from settle hygiene wit da crazy Ali..Syai terus scream-"K.shaz, Kurik Online!!" Yeay!!

It’s Hari Raya rite? so dats y people ask for forgiveness..(well at least, dats da best time to ask for it)

..if not tis time of da year when then? I think I did wat I should do..da rest is-SOLELY UP TO THEM..yea I dun expect things to change overnight..wait a minute-dun care n dun mind..I got My family-Kurik-My own circle of friends..(though they r not ere) so my heart n mind are pretty much occupied.

quote from an unqualified ustazah last nite-“let it be Shaz, treat them like small kids..coz they are indeed da adik2s..

ur

da big sis..” (huhu)..and again Tok Mek kata “tak payah tunggu buat salah baru nk mntk maaf”-Tok Mek my angel ..sayang Tok Mek!!

It’s 3^rd Syawal n it’s snowing..(actually 1^st Syawal arituh pun ade lil’ bit but so sekejap)..Well, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri-Maaf Zahir dan Batin..Made a lot of free calls to

Malaysia

..thnx to Voip haha!! My Mum, sis n bro ronda sakan umah all of my uncles n aunties smpi 3am in da morning..(hmm, gud to hear dat) n my Dad? Alahai bawak diri balik kg sorg diri..emo plak org tua tuh tis Raya. Then called Aisyah n Tok Mek..wished them Selamat Hari Raya..n Tok Mek mintak maaf wit me..i wuz like..Tok Mek, tok mek xde buat salah ngn saya…skali she said..tak yah tunggu buat salah baru nak mntak maaf..WAAAAA!! suddenly she made me realize sumthing..(apa ek?!)..

Mangkuk’s bday wuz on da 11^th –HEPI BDAY CHIP-PAN-ZI!!..n he told me dat our old friend is going to be a daddy soon..hmm, congratz lerr!!

Cuba

family’s XY superiority tradition..opsss, shaz..sila berhati2 di jalan raya k…(haha)

Oh, da day before dat, as expected, Syeikh Muzaphar shooted to ISS-made the nation proud..but sowi I had a lecture to attend..so I juz caught the video on youtube later after dat..Heard dat Dr.Faez will be going too next yr..ok laa tuh kan.-PROUD TO BE MALAYSIAN!!..and thnx to them again, tis yrs raya menu at da embassy got an extra additional touch..Rost Lamb with rice..(seems like plof jer to me)..but ok laa..n full media coverage of our raya celebration haha..I wuz giving salam ending da raya prayer n da vid camera wuz exactly under my nose..isk. x khusyuk semayang aku..(perasan!!)

Other than dat, have u seen Petronas 2007 raya ad? Waaa..rili made me cry laa..thank God syaireen duk sebelah..so cover la sket..Nape ek? Y must all raya ads be very sad? Except for da stupid proton

pontianak

one laa..(haha)….ok 0-0!!

p/s: Kueh Tart Ruby sedap..like seriously (tis ad is free!! hehe)